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Changing the world one word at a time.

I’ve been trying to write a new post for a while but I keep falling into the same cycle – “I’m going to write something today!” then I open my laptop, create a new draft, stare at the blank page for couple of minutes, surf the net for inspiration, stumble upon a cat video, forget what I was doing. When I realise time has been lost, I’d think “Man! Maybe I’ve lost that vision to be a writer. Maybe I’m not meant to write.”

Humans are capable of turning the simplest thing into full season of Emmy-winning drama. We like to be in control and feel like we’re making a difference with what we do.  I love writing but it’s not enough to put words into paper, I need to make the words come to life and crawl into your deepest, darkest heart, plant a seed and grow into an age-old tree and bear fruits to your next generations. I put so much burden into every word no wonder I ended up not typing anything.

I know people who are very intentional with the things they do and I admire them for it. But if you’re like me, a little scattered and easily distracted (basically an ENFP), don’t beat yourself up if you can’t think of a life changing action to take or story to tell. Start small and build up from there. Our approach to life shouldn’t be that complicated. While we strive to do our best we need to know that no one expects us to be perfect right away except our pride/ insecurities/ competitiveness/ Asian parents, maybe.

As you can see, I’m starting to write even when I don’t have the sentences in my head. But I know every post published will not be in vain because while it might not change the World, at least it brings clarity to myself and that’s good enough.

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X,
Mel.

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Why I Will Be A Writer.

I wrote a post on why I won’t be a writer last year and now I’m writing a post to oppose it. After close to a year, I have now garnered enough reasons to know that I will be a writer and here’s why:

1. There’s nothing I could dream of but to be a writer.
If you keep seeing something that caught your eyes over and over again, you’re going to buy it someday. If you keep seeing the same dream over and over again, you’re gonna live it out one day.

2. I don’t care if I have nothing to write about, I write anyway.
Paul Arden stated in his book Whatever You Think, Think The Opposite that “A bad idea executed is better than a good idea undone” which means even if I post something irrelevant, it is still better than plotting a blockbuster in my head. That’s what I’m doing.

3. I’m kicking my way out of the society hole.
I am practicing not to be concerned about what people think of me because they are not thinking of me. It is difficult to just let go and say whatever I want to, but I am training myself and that’s a step closer to becoming a writer. Stop caring of what would a million people think of what I write.

4. There must be a purpose for my passion for writing.
The Creator places passion in humankind for a reason. If you are gifted with numbers then maybe you should explore that option. I am not sure if I am gifted in writing but I definitely have a passion for it and it sure means something. I will not rest till I find its purpose.

5. Writing is my weapon of choice .
David won the battle against Goliath because he used the weapon that he is best at. David placed his faith with the Lord and does what he does best; to sling. David wasn’t carrying an ordinary sling, he was carrying a weapon that he has trained himself with for so long.* Writing shall be my weapon of choice.

I don’t know how long it’s going to take me to become a writer, but I’m locking this statement and pursuing that road. It might take 10,000 hours of training (according to Malcolm Gladwell’s Outliers), nothing can stop me and this is the feeling that makes me think that I finally have what it takes to become a writer; To let go of my fears of people’s opinion, caring too much if anyone is going to read me, and just write. If it fails, I’ll keep trying.

There is nothing to lose.

Cheers,
Mel.

*I’ve just read Malcolm Gladwell’s David and Goliath: Underdogs, Misfits and The Art of Battling Giants. It’s a good read!

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My voice on a night like this.

Once a month I would feel so grouchy I wanna bite someone’s head off or scold the life out of someone. Blame it on the cycle. There are two types of men: One who would be amazed at women’s transformation and the other who would scoff and think we’re just making an excuse to be a bitch. There are two types or women: One who would understand what I mean and the other who would agree with the latter type of men that I am being a bitch. I am being a bitch.

It’s been such a long time since I blogged. I am an emotional writer if you have not already noticed. I blogged when I feel the impulse to write, which is why I probably wouldn’t make a very good writer. Every since I graduated and try to fit into the adult working world (for 1.5 years and still trying), I find myself being drained by everyday routine. I like what I do but there’s always a feeling of “there must be something more that I can do”. I don’t have the urge to write because I pretty much feel nothing about anything. I am becoming objective to a lot of things. Everyone has got the right to do or think the way they do. But I always believe you need to have a stand in order to write well. You have to feel for what you write. I know this is just a blog and probably no one would even read this since I’ve not updated the blog for such a long time. But even if your only platform is a blog, you have to make your voice count for something you believe in. Internet has made it possible to share your thoughts so do it, but wisely.

And why would you listen to me?

Because I’m standing for the majority of people who believe in the good of humankind and when you’re given a platform, no matter how obscure, you have to make it count. After all, isn’t everyone just trying to make their lives add meaning to other people’s lives? <– This is a rhetorical question.

Anyhow, Christmas is just around the corner. If I don't have time to update till Christmas, I wish you an early Merry Christmas!! Hope to see you again soon.

Cheers,
Mel

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Why I Won’t Be a Writer.

At least not for now.

It has always been my dream to become a writer but that dream seems to be going further away from me. At this moment, I think it’s suffice to say I will not become a writer anytime soon. Why?

1. I have nothing to write.
As sad as it is, I truly have no passion in anything that I do right now. I used to be an opinionated person but now I’m not even sure what of what I used to be so sure of. With no opinion or passion in something, it’s very difficult to want to write and share.

2. I have no idea how to begin.
This is a common problem faced by anyone with any dream; not knowing where to start. I don’t know anyone whose job is a professional writer and I have no idea on how to get in touch with publisher or if I’ll ever be good enough to be talent scouted or find myself an agent.

3. I am slowly sinking into the society hole.
As as student, it’s easy to have big dreams and imagine all the possibilities ahead but when reality kicks in after I took the first step into working world, I realise most of my ideas are unrealistic and it’s time to do some adjustments.

4. My future is uncertain.
This country is slowly closing its door on foreign talent like myself. But I know my future is save in God’s hands as it is written in Jeremiah 29:11 – For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Once in a while I just need to remind myself not to worry too much.

5. I am becoming lazy.
This is the worst and biggest contributor to why I won’t be a writer. I spend an indecent amount of time on Candy Crush, Facebook, looking at funny cat videos, etc when I could be writing. While the internet provides accessible platforms for anyone to write, it also opens the door to gazillion distractions.

Based on the above, I could very well kiss goodbye to my dream. I think I’m going through quarter life crisis where I find myself not doing what I wish to do, not knowing how to get out of the situation, or knowing how to get out but not doing it because I’ve grown too comfortable with my current state.

I need to shake things up. I need a change. And it shall start from me. Today.

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